A Love That Never Was

In the very last episode of Ally McBeal, Ally had to move out to New York for the sake of Maddie's health. John, alone at his office, was reminiscing about some of the earliest meaningful conversation he had with Ally. The two had grown closer each year ever since they found out that they could understand each other's weirdness. They had a date once, which ended somewhat terribly. And John had to call it quits because it was apparent to him that at the time Ally was still in love with someone else from her past. At one point, Ally entertained the idea that they may have been made for each other and confronted John about it. But John was seeing someone else at the time and he began to see that their similarity made them best at being each other's therapist --not lover. Ally agreed that they shouldn't ruin their valuable friendship by contaminating it with love.

But for John, Ally would always be something special because in a world full of judgmental people, Ally is one of a very few people who gets him. In their own words, John no longer felt like he was the weirdest person in the room when he's with Ally. It's a blessing to ever have a chance to find someone who can make you feel that way and John knew it. He didn't get to meet someone like Ally everyday and everywhere. So it's very natural for him to cling onto her. It's very natural for him to want her for himself. And it's very natural for him to make another attempt...

John's musing was interrupted by Nelle's presence, who apparently had been standing there at his office unnoticed for quite some time.

"Nelle? Hello? How long have you been there?", asked John, slightly annoyed.

But Nelle knew too well what had been bothering him. "Have you talked to her?"

"Who?"

"Ally."

"About what?"

Nelle just looked at him.

"Nelle, we all move on at some point," he said finally, this time he had retreated back into his wise and tender self. "Richard's getting married. Ling became a judge. Ally's going to New York. People move on. It's part of life. People move on."



And though you should just be my John Cage, why am I feeling this pain in my chest?